I'll update..
So i left school, achieved the highest GCSE exam results in my entire year (and was very proud!) and am now at college, studying my Alevels - Art, Sociology, English Literature and a pre teaching course. I also had an awards evening not long ago (November possibly?) and enjoyed spending the night back at my second home, where i belong.
I have a new recovery tattoo! designed by myself involving the NEDA symbol and the initials of the names of every person who made me feel worth something...
Ohh and hey guess what?
IVE BEEN IN TREATMENT FOR A FULL YEAR! - the 18th of December was my one year mark, and i actually cannot believe I've perservered for long enough to achieve that. Although it feels like not much has changed, i'm hoping that maybe things will soon!!
I've made a few minor changes - dyed my hair for example! I've been a bright blonde since the day i was born and have now been reverted to brunette! take a look ..
Right now, i have a full 'Wuthering Heights' classic Bronte to plough through, ten tonnes of art that quite frankly is destroying my patience and a sociology exam to revise for that's blowing my mind- so I'm in the mood for a 3:30am venting session.
I wish that i felt more relaxed and sociable at college- unfortunately that's not the case, i've never felt more awkward and lonely in my life. I miss my school, my second home, the place i was taken care of, looked after, considered, acknowledged, the place i excelled and respected so many people for caring so much about me- my god my hearts in two. I should be moving on, but without their constant reassurance and guidance, i'm so incredibly lost. So much so, that my work experience i now spend with my old art teacher- probably to satisfy my sub-concious and make me feel safe.
I'd love more than anything to continue rambling, but the Christmas holidays are soon over and the workload remains very large. No rest for the wicked.
Stay strong
<3
This is the most beautiful NEDA tattoo I have ever seen! I am trying to design my own and love the idea of incorporating the initials of people who love you!
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