everyone walks around strutting their stuff, feeling comfortable as ever with their body and shape. wandering around in bikinis and ultimately feeling great. if i'm honest, im now sat in big sweatpants and a hoodie, i cant bear it! its ridiculously hot and i feel like flipping stripping off! but as ever i cant.
i did go out today, wearing shorts (encouraged greatly by my friends who thought it was ridiculous in this weather to wear anything but) and i felt entirely uncomfortable and wanted to go home.
it DID ruin my day, and i wondered (as i always do) why i cant just be normal, let go of my inhibitions and relax- but i couldnt. i did come home, and i felt totally pathetic.
managed some great shots of the sunset though-
Gorgeous right? it makes me wonder a lot- natural beauty that is. why is it never questioned or judged? its just there and people appreciate it, why cant life be like that? why is everyone so overly critical of themselves and the life we lead? its not worth it really, our lives are insignificant, and dont last long in the bigger picture. So why do we only see the ourselves as the bigger picture? like we're the only things we should think about? or people living around us at the same time?Its weird i know. i get like this sometimes. So many things go wrong and i do my best to look at the bigger picture, but it never works, all i can see is how badly im handling things and how much i want them to get better but i refuse to do anything about it. im a hypocryte and maybe i'll always be like that.
Maybe we should all watch the sun set once in a while, to remind ourselves that whatever happens and whatever we do wrong, ultimately it doesnt really matter, its just how we live. We should make the most of our lives, live it to the full everyday, so why do we stop ourselves?
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